Maybe not so surprised now. As was very evident this week, every secret has a way of coming out in awful ways. But I still think it's frightening, how could it not be?

I know Doctor believes he's done awful things, and objectively he's not wrong, but there's a scale to these matters. [ One murder + one awful request made to another aren't great, but her entire existence is about hurting others. She's trained herself to repress it but that's no great achievement, it's the bare minimum. ]