[ Wading into her feelings is -- odd. Her humanlike emotions are recognizable enough, but floating around them and sticking to them like a writhing, oily mass is her instinct: violence that pulls at every piece of her. There is no "positive" feeling without its opposite clinging to it, battling it. ]
[ She accepts his guilt readily enough, already intimately familiar. Hers is a gaping wound at the core of her, like a black hole drawing all else toward it. Every piece of her waiting to be stretched and swallowed by it. ]
[ But the human side of her fights it. Her love for him shines despite the darkness (possessiveness, jealousy) that try to bring it down. She wants to protect him and care for him and support him even though it means gritting her teeth against the part of her that wants to thrash and harm and kill. She accepts him as he is and shoves back the sneering contempt and fear her instinct has for everyone different. ]
[ Always, she is fighting. The good in her, what she tries to nurture and treasure, can't exist without its shadow, and so she fights. She fights every moment, and she will never be rid of it -- but amidst that hopeless certainty, she is determined. She will win. ]
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[ She accepts his guilt readily enough, already intimately familiar. Hers is a gaping wound at the core of her, like a black hole drawing all else toward it. Every piece of her waiting to be stretched and swallowed by it. ]
[ But the human side of her fights it. Her love for him shines despite the darkness (possessiveness, jealousy) that try to bring it down. She wants to protect him and care for him and support him even though it means gritting her teeth against the part of her that wants to thrash and harm and kill. She accepts him as he is and shoves back the sneering contempt and fear her instinct has for everyone different. ]
[ Always, she is fighting. The good in her, what she tries to nurture and treasure, can't exist without its shadow, and so she fights. She fights every moment, and she will never be rid of it -- but amidst that hopeless certainty, she is determined. She will win. ]