That's what I was thinking. And why I kept buying memories until I just needed a break. We had a game where we had to get a bunch at once in front of our unit and I think I overloaded a little.

[ If there was any bit of joy or even normal, boring day to day life to break up the traumatic slog, she'd have kept her pace up. But so far, there's none of that. Not a speck of real affection untouched by some machination or mind games at best, captivity and implications of torture at worst. Her past was making her hate herself even more, so she stopped. ]