Please, we both lie to ourselves. A terrible habit we both share.

[He holds him back continuing to soothe his back.]

You did, but I yet not know the specifics. It is difficult, is it not? Not only the shock of the act, but you have prioritized and succeeded at survival for so many, many years. I imagine each feels like failure in its own it.

It is not, but telling your mind that is a different matter.