[looks up, meeting Nine's gaze steadily. his response is slow as he tries to find words to describe his mindset.]

I... honestly don't know. When I couldn't find you, I remember thinking that I had to kill you, because you'd left me behind. But then it turned out that you were looking for me, and I thought maybe, as long as we were together... as long as you didn't try to leave, maybe it'd be okay. But since we'd be separated no matter what when everything reset, I still might have panicked, in the end.