Of course not. But he wasn't upset or angry either. More like... he'd accepted that was who I am and that it wasn't going to change, and was going to deal with it.

But that's not who I am. I'd spent like a week being confused and upset about that memory because I wouldn't give up that easily. And being the kind of person who gets my friends killed rather than being able to help or protect them is exactly the thing I am trying to change.