Mm... it's a tough position to be in. The whole point is that you don't want to hurt anyone, but by doing that, apparently you're hurting people. I guess...

[bites his lower lip, thinking for a moment. he looks a little sheepish.]

I don't know if I could promise I wouldn't do it again, if I were in your shoes. Like you said, it all comes down to choices we can live with. Me dying might hurt them, but giving up one of my last resort options when I already have so few would hurt me. Ideally there'd be a compromise, I guess...?