The reason why we played like that is because we're not okay. Watching our loved ones die over and over despite everything we try to do to stop it has pushed us to a breaking point. We can't... we can't take it any more.
So this time, in our desperation, anger, pain, and love, we did everything we could to stop that from happening again, because death would have been easier to bear than watching one more person we love die for us.
But after all of that, you still died anyway. And now people are blaming us for your deaths, when preventing that was literally the whole reason why we did this in the first place.
So I think everyone's kinda... in despair? Hopeless? Because even when we played in a way we finally felt we could live with, the outcome didn't change, and our loved ones still died, and all the people who care about us are hurt and angry. We're all kinda collapsing into ourselves with grief and guilt right now.
...[he rubs the back of his neck, pensive.]
I don't know where we're going to go from here. I guess we have to figure that out. Play in a way we hate for the sake of others, play in a way others hate for the sake of ourselves... I think even the middle ground is going to require some degree of just -- giving up, and not fighting for what we want or what we care about, at this point.
Yugi's angry, Wednesday's falling apart, Sunshine's a wreck because I think he tried to hurt himself to support us -- which none of us wanted, so that's another layer of unhappiness on top of everything. Pink and Sunrise weren't at the game but they've been doing their best to run interference while everyone has been taking turns yelling at us.
Re: forward-dated to day 130 sometime
The reason why we played like that is because we're not okay. Watching our loved ones die over and over despite everything we try to do to stop it has pushed us to a breaking point. We can't... we can't take it any more.
So this time, in our desperation, anger, pain, and love, we did everything we could to stop that from happening again, because death would have been easier to bear than watching one more person we love die for us.
But after all of that, you still died anyway. And now people are blaming us for your deaths, when preventing that was literally the whole reason why we did this in the first place.
So I think everyone's kinda... in despair? Hopeless? Because even when we played in a way we finally felt we could live with, the outcome didn't change, and our loved ones still died, and all the people who care about us are hurt and angry. We're all kinda collapsing into ourselves with grief and guilt right now.
...[he rubs the back of his neck, pensive.]
I don't know where we're going to go from here. I guess we have to figure that out. Play in a way we hate for the sake of others, play in a way others hate for the sake of ourselves... I think even the middle ground is going to require some degree of just -- giving up, and not fighting for what we want or what we care about, at this point.
Yugi's angry, Wednesday's falling apart, Sunshine's a wreck because I think he tried to hurt himself to support us -- which none of us wanted, so that's another layer of unhappiness on top of everything. Pink and Sunrise weren't at the game but they've been doing their best to run interference while everyone has been taking turns yelling at us.
It's been a lot.