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I -

I was... it was an accident the first time, I think. If I'd liked doing it then that would've been fine, or if I'd hated it that would have been alright too, but neither of those happened - I couldn't really understand the reason why, but I think... because of that, I assumed I'd done something wrong, so I kept going... um -

It was before I got here, and I'm sure there are more times than what I've remembered too, but I don't want to do anything like that ever again...