[ oops.

well, it doesn't have anything to do with anyone else here, at least. so it doesn't really matter. she smiles, a little sheepish, ]

I was... it was an accident the first time, I think. If I'd liked doing it then that would've been fine, or if I'd hated it that would have been alright too, but neither of those happened - I couldn't really understand the reason why, but I think... because of that, I assumed I'd done something wrong, so I kept going...