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Who: ZRAEL and u
Where: zrael dorm
When: Day 115, nightish to Day 116, whenever, whatever is most easy for us all in weird timelock zones.

[We won a game, huzzah! Night 115 is when Pharaoh is coming back to the unit with a pink sensitiv sweater wrapped around his waist because his clothes went missing.

But day 116, he's got clothes again, hooray. HOW ARE YOU ALL?]

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And there were only sixteen of us total, so that's a pretty high proportion. I guess we make good murder show characters.

What kind of memories have you seen so far?

...Trying to escape and failing. Discovering bodies... doing investigations. Having "class trials," and watching the culprit be executed. And once, getting a memory back, via a "Flashback Light."

...And some just hanging out. Not with him, though. I don't think we were friends.

Edited 2019-05-18 22:14 (UTC)

[oof]

That really does not sound much different from this program...

I'm worried.

For him?

For all of you. None of you deserve this. It is bad enough you had to endure a killing game the one time... and now you have to endure another situation like that, while regaining those memories. It is repulsive.

[...]

Well, there's not much we can do about it. Other than not buy memories, I guess.

[an uneasy pause]

Is avoiding your memories the answer?

That's hard to answer. Some people think memories are useless... Intensity's one of them. C says so too, though he still buys them in secret, apparently.

I think there are things we can learn from them. But is it worth it...?

...I am still trying to figure that out myself. Song—the other person I share this body with—has taken one memory so far, and it was terrible. It left her distraught and anxious, unlike the optimistic person I witnessed her as before.

When Intensity suggested she stop taking memories, I was a little upset.

...and I don't know why I was upset.

After all, there isn't any good reason I can come up with that would make memories worth taking. Not for someone who has to endure a past of pain, like yourself and the others.

Edited 2019-05-19 22:12 (UTC)

[Only kind of blinks at "the other person I share this body with." She's seen that a couple of times with significantly less self-awareness.]

I think of it this way. We're people who learned things, over the course of our lives. There may be lessons we've forgotten that would keep us from doing something we regret, here. That was definitely the case for me... though I didn't get the memory back until after.

[nods]

I want to believe that. I want to learn from my past mistakes and learn who I was before I came here, so I continue taking memories as well.

Mm. Though, my memories have gotten to a point where...

[...]

...I'm not sure how much there is left to learn.

As if there is nothing more to benefit from by purchasing memories?

I don't know. I want to find out what was going on, in the last memory I bought... and what eventually happened. But as far as learning things to help me move forward here... there might not be any point to it.

It may not help you advance, but purchasing a memory for reason like that is fine, too...

Maybe. But I'm probably going to remember a lot more death before I get the answer.

[she doesn't know how to respond to that, especially if she's apologized for what feels like a million times already... instead, she gazes uneasily at the sea through the floor]

...Sorry. I'm not being a very good host. I've had... a rough few days.

Feel free to hang out with the others... I think I'm going to go have a shower.

Do not apologize for something like that.

[inclines her head, in a bow]

If you decide you want one of the treats I brought, they will be on the table even after we have left.

...Thanks.

[And with that she does abscond back towards the bathroom.]

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