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[mywife]

Who: ZRAEL and u
Where: zrael dorm
When: Day 115, nightish to Day 116, whenever, whatever is most easy for us all in weird timelock zones.

[We won a game, huzzah! Night 115 is when Pharaoh is coming back to the unit with a pink sensitiv sweater wrapped around his waist because his clothes went missing.

But day 116, he's got clothes again, hooray. HOW ARE YOU ALL?]

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[rollplayinghouse]

[...]

[quietly]

I do. He's from the same place as me.

[resonantblue]

[lowering her volume]

You are not pleased to see him... is my assessment based off your reaction to his presence.

[Not totally here]

[justpure]

[You two are lucky he's being distracted by Pharaoh. Otherwise, his curiosity might have gotten the better of him.]

[rollplayinghouse]

Well, that 'place' was trapped in a killing game, so I wouldn't be pleased to see almost anyone.

I don't remember that much about him... he was kind of weird, and we weren't friends.

[resonantblue]

[—!]

So this idol setup is not completely unfamiliar to you...

[rollplayinghouse]

...We weren't idols. But yes, the situation was similar in a lot of ways.

[resonantblue]

[steals a glance at Medusa, troubled]

I am sorry...

[rollplayinghouse]

...I didn't tell him. He can get settled in for a while before he learns about that. Besides, I don't want to have that conversation right now... it didn't really go that well with X, so I need to figure out the best way to approach it.

[resonantblue]

Ah. Him.







Him, too?

[rollplayinghouse]

Yes. X, C and I were all in the killing game.

[resonantblue]

...four people. That is quite troubling.

[rollplayinghouse]

And there were only sixteen of us total, so that's a pretty high proportion. I guess we make good murder show characters.

[resonantblue]

What kind of memories have you seen so far?

[rollplayinghouse]

...Trying to escape and failing. Discovering bodies... doing investigations. Having "class trials," and watching the culprit be executed. And once, getting a memory back, via a "Flashback Light."

...And some just hanging out. Not with him, though. I don't think we were friends.

[resonantblue]

[oof]

That really does not sound much different from this program...

I'm worried.

[rollplayinghouse]

For him?

[resonantblue]

For all of you. None of you deserve this. It is bad enough you had to endure a killing game the one time... and now you have to endure another situation like that, while regaining those memories. It is repulsive.

[rollplayinghouse]

[...]

Well, there's not much we can do about it. Other than not buy memories, I guess.

[resonantblue]

[an uneasy pause]

Is avoiding your memories the answer?

[rollplayinghouse]

That's hard to answer. Some people think memories are useless... Intensity's one of them. C says so too, though he still buys them in secret, apparently.

I think there are things we can learn from them. But is it worth it...?

[resonantblue]

...I am still trying to figure that out myself. Song—the other person I share this body with—has taken one memory so far, and it was terrible. It left her distraught and anxious, unlike the optimistic person I witnessed her as before.

When Intensity suggested she stop taking memories, I was a little upset.

...and I don't know why I was upset.

After all, there isn't any good reason I can come up with that would make memories worth taking. Not for someone who has to endure a past of pain, like yourself and the others.

[rollplayinghouse]

[Only kind of blinks at "the other person I share this body with." She's seen that a couple of times with significantly less self-awareness.]

I think of it this way. We're people who learned things, over the course of our lives. There may be lessons we've forgotten that would keep us from doing something we regret, here. That was definitely the case for me... though I didn't get the memory back until after.

[resonantblue]

[nods]

I want to believe that. I want to learn from my past mistakes and learn who I was before I came here, so I continue taking memories as well.

[rollplayinghouse]

Mm. Though, my memories have gotten to a point where...

[...]

...I'm not sure how much there is left to learn.

[resonantblue]

As if there is nothing more to benefit from by purchasing memories?