[. . . and in that moment, there's more longing and a hint of loneliness from Mars's end. a bit of fear of connections, of relationships, of getting hurt when people pull away or die or lose interest in him or prefer Joker or someone else over him or simply move on or--]

[he digs the heel of his palm into one eye and grumps, before tightening his grip on Joker's back as he attempts to shove those emotions aside and reach for that relaxed chill again]

-- hit me again. Amplify the good.

[he wants to go back to that nice boneless feeling and stop getting distracted by the things that suck]